Shard of Hell

It isn't a curse for me to live this way. It isn't a plague that streams venom through my veins when I wake up every morning. It isn't misfortune or bad luck that sends me spiraling into the depths of infinite darkness when the simplest of conditions are out of line. I have not been bewitched by some supernatural force of nature. This is me and my hindrance. I am here as I am with a shard of hell embedded in my brain. I don't think I'll ever know whether I was born this way or if I have grown to acquire my burden, but it won't matter either way. I am alive with my hell and it is natural. It isn't right for a person to suffer at the hands of their own imagination, but it is still part of me. However, no matter what this hell commands, it has no superiority over my own self. This shard of hell is not bigger than me no matter how it feels some days. It's true I don't control it, but I control if I fight back or not. I control how I react to the demons it sends out to attack. It isn't a curse I'm meant to break, it will be a fight I endure for the rest of my life. This shard of hell will forever reside within me, and I will try my best not to let it shatter me.

A/N: I know that I have been m.i.a. for a very long time. My life has changed drastically from when I was active on this blog and I actually took a very long hiatus from writing in general so my style will have changed a great deal. I apologize if my posts are no longer up to par due to my lack of practice but I'll try my best to get back into the groove of expressing my ideas and possibly allowing myself to regain the strength I once possessed. My shard of hell for the past 5 years has actually been major depression and general anxiety disorder. I've spent the last couple of years being broken down and fighting back up only to fall all over again, over and over. It has been a terrible struggle in which I, unfortunately, lost my passion for writing. I'm trying my best to get better and writing once gave me immense joy so I've decided to delve back into it. Thank you for your patience and I hope everybody knows that I am always here to help anybody who needs a friend or wants to talk.